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Davor Katusic's avatar

This was beautiful and grounding to read. Thank you for this gift.

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Duane Toops's avatar

Thank you Davor! So glad it resonated with you!

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Davor Katusic's avatar

;)

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Anne Silver Mondinot's avatar

You get me every single time. You're a master of hooking the reader at the end of your text. In my case, it always finishes in the same way: A sigh, and an "Oh!," after which I say to myself, "This is so damn good." Thank you so much for sharing.

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Duane Toops's avatar

haha, Thank you Anne! You’re too kind. I’ve read that there are three stages to a magic trick: The Pledge, The Turn, and The Prestige. In the Pledge the magician shows you an ordinary, every day object, something you’ve always seen but never paid attention to. In the Turn the magician makes it do something extraordinary, the impossible becomes possible in a way we can’t believe, we question the very nature of truth and reality. And in the Prestige, the magician resolves the mystery, not in a way that answers all our questions , but in a way that shows us how far deeply and widely the mystery breathes into everything, that the miraculous is hidden within all things.

I’m not a magician, but I believe that writing is a chance to do something magical. That it can take the most mundane of things, thoughts, and feelings, that it can turn them into something beyond belief, and that it can then presents it back to us in a way that makes us change the way we see the world. The pledge, the turn, and the prestige.

It’s a sacred honor to fulfill this code every time words are committed to a page. When it’s done right, when it’s done well, when it’s done with discipline, commitment, and grace, we all get to share a moment when we see that the magic has always-already been there, and its worth believing in.

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Abbey Wade's avatar

“When you're standing at what you thought was the end of what the universe had to throw at you, and it turns out it was only stretching.”

Love this.

“Hidden and unbidden…”

“…feel it in the marrow of things..”

Oof. So beautiful, Duane. You stole my breath

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Duane Toops's avatar

Glad you liked it! Thanks so much!

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Duane Toops's avatar

Oh my goodness! This is amazing! Thank you!!

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Paul Wittenberger's avatar

Sadly the future is not what it was.

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Duane Toops's avatar

It isn’t, but there’s still some wonder and curiosity left for what it could still be.

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Manuela Thames's avatar

I have been taking in the second collage and keep coming back to it. It’s different, almost three dimensional. I feel like I am entering into someone’s space…

I love it!

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Duane Toops's avatar

I love that! I'm always trying to play with scale and depth in interesting ways, or at least ways that are interesting to me, lol. I tend to think of and relate to my collages as spaces, like small windows into other places and worlds, fragments of bigger narratives that are just out of view.

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Sunshine's avatar

Thank you for putting words to feelings that are so hard to name. Sometimes all we need is that little reminder that we’re not alone, and this feels like a gentle lifeline in the dark. Truly, thank you for sharing this.

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Duane Toops's avatar

So well said! Those little reminders always mean the world to me, they always make the biggest difference, and I do my best to put as many back into the world i can.

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Patris's avatar

Beautiful words. Ever expanding vision in your work.

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Duane Toops's avatar

Thank you so much!!

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The Sea in Me    (Síodhna)'s avatar

Love this Duane. I've been away a little, what a lovely piece to read tonight. May all that is mysterious, hidden and unbidden find us. Carry us.

How, if we aren't afraid of the dark, if we let it define the light, how it might illuminate the surprising path, the calling

.... of feeling ALIVE

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Duane Toops's avatar

"May all that is mysterious, hidden and unbidden find us. Carry us." - what a gorgeous blessing to give and receive! Thank you for this!!

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Neil Barker's avatar

I like your point about going through the trials and tribulations and later realizing it was just stretching and the warm-up. So true.

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Duane Toops's avatar

Oh, boy does it ever feel true! Thanks Neil!

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Hannah Hunter's avatar

Really like how the compositions echo your thoughts, as if the visual and the verbal interweave between your mind and hands.

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Duane Toops's avatar

Thank you Hannah! It’s one of teh most interesting and surprising parts of putting together these newsletters every week. The writing and the collages to place completely separate from one another. At separate time and in separate places and in separate headspaces. I don’t think about the writing while I’m collaging, and I don’t think about the collages when I’m writing. But it sit down to put them together. I discover that all week they’ve already been speaking.

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George Slade's avatar

I'm admiring the way you weave your collage pieces in with your stream of thoughts. And the titles of the collages are a definite plus in the equation. Excellent musings!

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Duane Toops's avatar

Thanks so much George! I love picking where each collage will sit within each section of a piece of writing. It wonderful to see unfold into a conversation that i feel lucky to be a witness to. thanks so much!

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Vanessa's avatar

Are you familiar with the work of Todd Bartel? I think of your work when I look at his. The work is stunning- he’s jargon less so …

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Duane Toops's avatar

Wow! That’s such a high compliment! I am familiar with Todd’s work. He’s amazing. Interestingly enough I have a collage that was just in a show that he was one of the co-curator’s for at the Simmerling Gallery in Chicago. I wasn’t able to attend but it was an absolute privilege to be amongst so many amazing artists and to have been selected by him. Thanks again!

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Celia Crane's avatar

:'} So good.

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Duane Toops's avatar

Thank you so much!

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